Hard truths

 I think I just want people to like me...

I desperately want that...

Maybe because I didn't feel loved or wanted growing up, which made me think I didn't deserve to be loved...

I still think there's nothing lovable in me...

But I still need people to like me, and shower me with attention and care, even when I feel I'm deceiving them into doing it...

I'm an attention whore, and a drama queen, and a complete nuisance

So I try to fight that need, and try to isolate myself so I'm less of a burden to people... Because I don't deserve their love and attention, and they don't deserve to be bothered by me...


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