Uninspired...

 I wanna cry...

I just wanna cry...

For everything I have lost...

For not knowing what to do...

I feel lost...

I feel like everything I try to do is in vain...

I start things but then can't get myself to get through it because it always requires interacting with people and I just can't...

And I hate myself for it...

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