Clarity

 I think I know what I need to stop...

I need him to break my heart

I need him to tell me he's done with me

I need him to tell me he doesn't need me anymore

Or want me

Or love me...

(Of course he doesn't love me, I don't know why I wrote that)

If he does that, and if he means it, I know I would be free...

I need that closure

I need to know for sure that our thing is over and done, so I can stop idealising him...

So I can stop going back to him...

So I can stop this feelings...

So I can stop waiting for him...

So I can stop loving him...

It's the least he can do for me now, right?




So, break my heart and set me free...

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