Without

 Every time something like this happens... When I make a mistake and hurt someone, I wish I was never born...

I wish I had died before being born... How much happy my mom would have been without me, the disappointment, the useless one... She would be so happy with just my brothers, the ones she adores... 

And they all would be better, wouldn't they? 

He would have never felt the need to cheat, to have others besides me...

J would have kept living his life in peace, without the burden of trying to love me and understand me...

Fa would have been better without me... Maybe she would still be alive...?

I wish I had died before I met them... Before I got the chance to hurt them over and over and over again...

I wish they would be free of me... Of my burdens, of my stupidity, of my love...

Of the burden of knowing me...

I wish they would be free of the silly illusion that they need me, love me, want me, like me... Because they don't really... 


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