Smoke and mirrors

 I'm beginning to understand how this works... And it's kinda weird, kinda frustrating, kinda simple... And I'm not sure if I like it or not...

I mean, there's way too many things I still don't get about the gaming community, and it's social interactions... 

Like... Dating in-game... 

And that got me thinking... I already know I'm just a fantasy for him, but... Is that all? Is like game-dating? Or more like game-fcking? 

And what about the other people? My friends and the guys that keep trying to get my attention? 

Is it all an illusion? Am I making a huuuuuuge mistake...? Again...?

I don't know if I'm making much sense, I can't get my ideas straight, maybe it has to do with the fact that my head hurts, I may have caused a misunderstanding for someone and I'm hungry... 

Gods, I should really get a grip on my temper, sheeesh... But I do hope I'm just exaggerating and there is not really a misunderstanding, but all in my head... 

Oh, dear Bastet, let it be all in my head... I don't know how to deal with this kind of situations and that's infuriating!