I was asked why do I keep talking to C...

And I don't quite know the answer to that...

Part of me gets it and the other part doesn't...

It's the attention that I like

He began kinda insulting me and then called me "cute"... Negging much? 

And without me knowing, I was trapped. I began craving his attention and his approval, like a stupid little girl...

Worst is, he still does it... He keeps treating me like I don't know anything, throws a compliment here and there, then says or asks something kinda weird or stalky...

No... The worst thing is I just didn't realize I was trapped. I just gave him some power over me nobody should really have... 

And it's infuriating and sad and maddening! 

And just as I'm convinced I should stop talking to him, out him to the boss, and get it over with, he says something nice and messes with my head and resolution... I keep doubting myself, keep making excuses like "it's just the way he talks, he's not really mean, he's my friend, he's being helpful, he's teaching me..."

Seriously, what's wrong with me???!!!

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