Bottom

 You know that desperation, I'm sure you're familiar...

That desperation of not being able to help someone no matter what you do or say or try... The feeling of just telling them that the situation they are in just sucks and that you wish you could do something more for them... That you are there for them, knowing all well that you make absolutely no difference...

And then, to top it all off, feeling like crap because you are not the one going through that situation and yet you feel bad... 

You try to but you just don't understand because you have never been through something like that... You don't understand, so shut the fuck up...

Completely useless

I make no difference

I am not enough for anyone

I am not enough for me

Why do I insist on keeping on living?

Just because I want to...?

Just because I like stories...?


Sleep


I'm so sleepy...

My brain can't take it... 


Just... sleep...

Tomorrow it won't be better, possibly, but I can keep fucking it all up...

For today, sleep...

I am useless, anyway, so what's the difference if I'm asleep or awake...?


Let the sea take you into its embrace... Let it take you to the bottom, where you belong... And stay there... 

Stay there...


Stay there...


Where you belong...

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