Hurt

Do you know that feeling...?

That feeling of being a total failure to your loved ones...

And having to cry in silence, hiding, because they already asked you to stop being sad and stop crying...

Do you know that feeling?

Of crying without making a sound and hoping you could disappear, even for a little...

Of having to pretend everything is alright because, what's the point...?

Of feeling so useless...

Of feeling tired of being useless...

Of feeling tired of failing them time after time after time...

Of being of absolutely no use to them...

Of knowing for a certainty they would be better without you...

Can I stop hurting them...?

What happens when I cannot pretend anymore...?

When the feelings drown me and bring me down to the bottom...?

What then...?

Will it stop hurting then...?

Will I stop hurting them...?