And suddenly, just like that, he writes again....
And I'm alive again...
He got me wrapped around his fingers, and most of the time I don't mind relinquishing control to him...
I can fake not being in control
I can make it seem like I'm completely submitted to his will, while I know I am in control of the situation, of myself...
And then, like a thunder striking, I saw...
I saw I had lost...
By trying to keep him interested, I betrayed my own will...
And I didn't realize it until it was too late...
I lost at my own game.
By trying to seduce him, I ended up giving him everything I swore to myself I wouldn't do unless I got something of the same value in return...
The worst part wasn't even that.
The worst part is that I didn't keep quiet.
Of course I had to make a mess of things even more by telling him I was mad at myself for that.
Why didn't I just shut up and keep it to myself?
Troy caught fire again, no surprises there.
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