Alone

 Everyone is leaving the clan...

And I feel so sad and useless, because I can't really change anything and I wish we could go back to being the super active, social, fun and engaging clan we once where...

But many have lost hope in that once other members started leaving, which got way worse when the boss stepped down due to irl issues...

And I can't do anything...

At this rate, I don't even know if we'll survive the holidays...

I'll sink with the ship, of course, or leave the moment the boss decides to leave... Or quit...

Even thinking about that gives me so much anxiety, because I love the clan, and of course I love the boss... I don't know what I'll do without them... I know I was alone before, and perfectly fine, but after meeting the boss and the clan, I don't think I can go back to being by myself...

I just wanna cry...

And I know is a game... And I know it doesn't matter to many... But you just don't know what it means to me... It's not easy to understand...

Ah... My anxiety is getting out of control...

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