Mistakes

 After what I told C just because I snapped, I felt so vulnerable... I should have never, NEVER, shared that with him... Specially with him! I wanted to hurt him, for him to feel weird and desperate and uncomfortable enough so he would stop talking to me...

Apparently it had the opposite effect... He sent me a friend request again but I didn't want to accept it... Said we could perhaps be friends after all... But my anxiety after sharing something so personal was getting out of control...

I finally had to tell bf... He was not happy, of course, and advised me to block him once and for all... 

I convinced myself that that was the only choice, but I wanted to explain to C why I was saying goodbye... But when I was supposed to tell him, I just couldn't... And I just blocked him...

Ah... I'm sorry...

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