Lies and a goodbye

One of my friends said his goodbyes... He said he is leaving the game and left our wb...

I'm in shock... I feel a hole inside... 

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And, on top of that... 

Could I be making a mistake, yet again? It makes sense that he is only telling me what I want to hear... Since I know he lied already with the whole "I wanted you since the beginning"... 

I would absolutely hate being lied like that... Like I said, I don't care if you only want to play and sext, I'm completely ok with that, I don't need anything more from you, but the attention that you give... I don't need a relationship, your money, gifts or anything else... I like honesty, I like feeling sexy and desired... That's completely ok... But if he lies, I'll be so pissed, so fucking mad at him and myself...

I won't be able to survive that kind of mistake... So what should I do now? 

I'm starting to have an anxiety attack...

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